What happened to me... it's been two years and I'm still harboring on it, I probably need a therapist but my stubbornness probably doesn't want me to go, it wants me to do shit like this where I throw a pity party on a crappy forum.

Ohh boo hoo you don't matte r this mUCH YOU FUCKING IDIOT
SHUT UP I FUCKING HATE YOU AND THEY DO AND YOU DESERVE ALL IT, YOU ACT LIKE YOU'RE SOME VICTIM WHEN NO YOU AREN'T

YOU'RE PATHETIC YOU ARE NOTHING
I JUST WANT TO GRAB YOU BUY YOUR HEAD AND *crack*

Oh god...
I'm going to cry now aren't I?
... maybe I should just get over myself already...

I keep staring at my own reflection and my views of others

is it worth it?

am I worth all this...

am I worth anything...?

And myself.

I'm lost, set adrift on a raft made of my mistakes.
By the ones I loved.

Or whatever-
How am I meant to even figure out what to do when I barely know who I am? I have no real skills other than those crappy doodles. And they aren't even that good.

Y'know what........
I'm just bitching and moaning aren't I? I deserved it.
i'M horribLE.

I was nothing to you.
I WAS NOTHING TO ANY OF YOU.

It hurts. I thought you'd stick by me. HELP me.

I wanted to change but you just made it worse.

JUST FUCKING DIE ALREADY.
BURY YOURSELF

I want them to hurt.