I just want to have a good future, have a wife and kids, develop games that turn famous that are fun for the kiddos, like, shooters, platformers, but my present looks so bad at age 14, I feel like I might not make it

I almost passed away due how fast my heart beated, I had to drink water and take so much deep breaths, I feel depressed due all this, I'm trying to respect my parents, respect people in the internet, I just want to change.

I really love y'all who understands me, I'm literally trying to change, I just need support along the way to help me reach my desired objective. Hate is not helping anything.

The Rebecca Bluegarden tied up gif is literally in the Anime, plus I was just joking around with "zamn", Jesus christ.

https://gamejolt.com/p/everything-posted-is-public-my-conscience… BRO even my past is right about my present, this isn't funny.

I putted my entire food back in fridge, I'm not eating anymore, I'm only drinking lemonade, this is to much for me, people wishing me to burn in hell hurts me, I'm evangelical, I believe in God and this is just way too fucked even though I messed up.

Seriously stop attacking me, if you we're in my place you would feel the pain I'm in right now, I'm not staying for followers but my friends in this platform, I was planning to quit in 2022

I cant even stand one minute away from my phone, hate hits my face, this is too much for me, if you hate me just leave me, stop being thirsty for controversy.

I'm literally going to try changing today or tomorrow, serious.

My friends are turning against me and stuff, I'm so sorry for all this, even Julie dude, I feel the worst ever possible, Please, I wanna change now, I wanna fight my intrusive thoughts and addictions, please give me a chance, I swear I'm trying.