Vent/rant in 𝐸𝑟𝑖𝑛'𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑢𝑛𝑖𝑡𝑦 <3

I guess I'm emotional now because I have trauma being yelled at .

" You're so emotional . "

" I yell at you because I care and I love you , you know that right ? "

. . .

She basically emotionally abuses me and doesn't apologize afterwards , and if she does , she completely just forgets cause she has a shitty memory and yells at me anyway . I hate being yelled at , and I literally could not stop crying .

Great , feeling suicidal now .

I have a gacha server ? One person chats .

I have my own server ? No one cares .

Why do I even try .

Not my mom telling me to 'calm down' while I'm playing Mario Kart , I got my competitiveness from her and she always yells at her own phone , so shut the fuck up , you hypocrite . Then she yells at me for not saving my ticket , fucking boohoo .

. .

She dated two people who identified as female before they became trans .

I get that it was years ago , and I guess I know how people's sexualities change . .

But it still hurt being rejected .

I really liked her . .