So for those of you who have no idea who Ham is. She's someone I met in the latter half of 2025. At first when I met her and saw the shit on her I wanted nothing to do with her, but after Gamer4life's post redeeming and soul partially redeeming her I gave her a second chance. That proved to be a mistake.

During the 2 months I spent with her it was accident after accident with her let alone the fact she's notorious for causing problems and having dumb fucks like myself clean up her messes without a second thought. She's also incredibly micro-managey to an unhealthily and feverish level let alone having strict ways on how to play something like Guest 1337 in Forsaken saying that he can only be played as a Sentinel when that's not the case. Her way of articulating this point is also extremely corrosive in nature to the point where I thought I did something wrong.

Let alone the fact she's easily Jealous and takes out her anger on me and never fails to make that known whenever me and somoene else are playing a game or doing anything to pass the time while waiting for her. Let alone the fact she has a tendency to blame others for other people leaving her because of the fact she's unpleasant to be around. Her unrestrained anger issues coupled with the fact she's not medicated for BPD is a recipe for how you make someone into a disaster and mess them up for life.

Another thing about her is that she can never recognize when she is wrong and always resorts to blaming things on me blaming the cause of the problem being her anger. Let alone the fact that she always expect a red carpet welcome whenever me or the others have planned sessions. The expectation was that she could pop in whenever she wants, and in all the cases when I've extended the olive branch to her she's denied it and then blamed me for feeling lonely.

However, where's there's problems there should be accountability and I'll take that with the mentions of eroticism in the doc about Xenia in some instances were I unintentionally cultivated Ham's ego. After all, back then I thought she was my friend, someone who cared about me and someone who I wanted the best for. Clearly, I was deceived and in restrospect, the pattern was obvious, but not in the moment.