to some people this will come as a shock, and to others this may come as a victory. i, joe, formerly known as joseppi, have come to a recent realization that what i’m doing here is not healthy. involving myself in this community is not a good thing. after constantly getting thrown into this loop of drama, i’m making the decision to stop while i still can.

my name is joe. i am 17 years old and am from connecticut. that’s all you really need to know about me. but for others, this likely isn’t enough. there are people in this community who will try to hunt you down, find out every single piece of information on you. these people never let go. they don’t have sound motives. thankfully i haven’t been a victim of any witch hunts within this community, but I have witnessed, and shamefully, on some occasions, taken part in them. and for that, i apologize.

i don’t want any pity and i don’t want anyone to feel bad for me. i’ve guilt tripped people in the past and i don’t want people to think that’s what i’m doing now. i’m not mentally okay, and i have been suffering from depression, anxiety, adhd, and other things for years now. as time has gone by, i’ve realized that i may never recover from some of these illnesses or their symptoms.

they consume me. i spend every waking hour worrying about things that i shouldn’t be worrying about. i have a therapist and a psychiatrist, both of which don’t help with my situation. my psychiatrist has tried almost every combination of medication that he could come up with, and my symptoms rarely got better. 

i saw my therapist last week and she asked me if i want to get better. this is a question that she asks me almost every time i see her, and many people have asked me this as well. the question is a trap, because by going to therapy i’m showing that i do care about myself. i always answer yes to this question, but after thinking about it, i haven’t really done anything to help myself. in fact, a lot of the things i do feeds into my mental illness and eats me up. when my therapist asked me if i want to get better, i realized that the answer was really “no”. 

so i’m leaving for my own personal wellbeing. i can’t take this drama anymore. every day is something new. i want to get better, i want to see myself happy, but right now i can’t do that. i’m being held back by myself and by other people.

i’m a voice actor for the current expelled studios game, “crawlspace: insanity remastered”. the game is planned to release in december of this year. i’m going to do my best to continue working on this project, but once that ends, i’m leaving for good. i won’t be working on any fangames in the near future. i have way more important things to worry about.

i’m becoming an adult and am realizing that i need to act like one. i need to get my life together. i’ll be going to college soon, and the last thing that i want to think about in college is a fnaf fangame and all the drama that surrounds it. 

i’m going to miss some things. some of this community is great, and some people i consider to really be my friends. there is a small group of people who draw fanart for dormitabis remastered, and i want to say that i love the art and hope that they continue drawing. other people just want to stir up drama and cause trouble. i hope that those people can find peace and find something better to do with their lives. 

but for now, i can’t continue to involve myself with this community. it’s too much for me to handle right now. i don’t know if i’ll be back. if you want to contact me, my discord username is “chromatography”. i would love to stay in touch with some people, and would love to still talk with some of you.

thank you for everything.

goodbye,
joe