i wish i could borrow your eyes

see what you see

slip into the way you view me

they hand me the stars,

because i am the sun

they tell me all these things about me that they love

yet i cannot believe them

i do not see what they see

what you see

you say i am a lovely, kind, welcoming treasure

but all i see

is a selfish, greedy useless leech

to you, i am bathed in light 

but in the mirror i am surrounded by darkness

you tell me that im funny

that my laugh is infectious

but the word infectious

only means sick to me