I still love internet and social interactions

I love Youtube, I love gamejolt, discord and even making content

It's just that the most disturbing thoughts for me are that everything is not going quite right as I imagined...

If you have been communicating with me for a long time, then you should clearly know that I am a fierce dreamer and storyteller

Even I am already beginning to perceive it as my talent and peculiarity

I often imagine my near future and even people (yes, I'm hoping to meet people who doesn't exist at all)

But, as you understand, reality always separates the border between your dreams and what really life is

Lately, I've just started to get tired and get lost in thought or isolation with irl and friends I talking with (who is not foreign for me)

I even start to get excited when I open the discord...

Yes... It's just that...

I start to just worry about thoughts like "what if something happened? What if this will be the last moment when they trust me? What if something terrible technically happened?"

If you know, I have stopped being active in discord lately since it has been blocked in our country and therefore the only way through which I can enter it is by vpn

I just don't know what to do lately, and I'm very afraid of how things will actually change if everything goes as I imagine

Thank you if you readed that, I hope you understand me

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