I know... I don't deserve redemption... but I wanna try. I really do. I take accountability for my actions, I admit I was wrong. I'm autistic, i'm not patient, and I know it's not an excuse... But I just want you guys to forgive me at the very least. I wanna change, and i'm trying, but i'm gonna need time to do so. I hate myself, I spent the past few nights barely sleeping, thinking about what I've done, what I did wrong. I know I'm a monster, a dipshit, an asshole, and a dick... but I just wanna apologize to you guys. I wanna be friends again, but if you guys don't want to... that's fine, and I understand.