so as some of you have noticed

the game page has been labeled on "Haitus"

well the truth is

i dont know what to do for this project

and honestly

i dont know what to do

in general

i'm struggling to keep the motivation for anything i do

if i'm being honest i dont even know who i am anymore

i have never been well, i think that's obvious

i haven't been feeling very well these past few months

i dont feel good any day of the week

and it's been affecting my passion for any of this

then i force myself to work

which never gets anywhere because i give up 5 minutes later

i just feel like a burden to many people

and i'm just there in grouped conversations

just a decoration

and i just accept that fact

i just

dont feel anything i do is worth it

what's the point

there is none

i just do it

because i love it

but what's there to love if it doesn't help people smile?

this game will probably only make 13 people happy

most of which are my friends

who are technically forced to play because we're friends

this doesn't feel good at all

none of it is

it doesn't help i feel actively selfish and attention seeking for writing any of this

i'm coming clean with my emotions (partialy)

yet i feel pain just doing it

knowing stuff

and mostly no one will be able to read this

as it will be released at night

where everyone is asleep

so i'm talking to a mostly brick wall

it's just so

..

heart breaking?

i dont know

i never do

but hey if you dont care you'd be happy to know the game is kinda half way done

....so that's something.. i guess

TL;DR

i'm depressed i think but that doesn't matter the game is halfway done yayyy!!!... er..... but put on hold for now