About news from me And health problems gradually being resolved

Well, the issue with my menstrual bleeding has been resolved 🙏 and I'm taking injections sometimes to recover the vitamins I lost, and I'm also on a diet because my glucose level is 35, which is a bit high and not normal.

Warning: this post may be very sensitive or even emotionally affecting for some readers. Please read it only if you are in a good frame of mind, and do so at your own risk. If you are not feeling well, please do not read it and check out my other posts instead.

Notes from Warning:It's not my fault that I did it because I was doing it without realizing it. I should have been more careful, so please respect that it was difficult.

Unexpected, complex, and unforeseen problems in a relationship ex-boyfriend I had with an artist [please, if he ever reads this, don't take it personally].

Well, I was in a relationship that seem serious or like dating, but more like a relationship with benefits situation. I was given the chance to meet someone called Blue, who is a good 2D artist on Twitter... At first, I only saw him as a friend. I didn't want anything more than friendship, but because of the way he seemed to be into me, I gave it a chance so as not to lead him on. Then the problem happened a few months later and weeks later. The right thing would have been to start with just friendship, and I was hearing rumors that this relationship wasn't going to work out. I always tried to talk to him more often, but most of the time he didn't respond or read my messages. Only a few times did he read and respond, and when it was something more personal or a sensitive issue I was going through, we talked more on calls than in private messages. He used a lot of affectionate nicknames and even made three artworks of my main fursona and his. He made a memd art and another sona in my magma and made a birthday art for my main fursona. I can't post it because it's NSFW+18 art of my character without clothes and with private parts and blood. Gamejolt doesn't like these posts and would probably take down the post, and I would probably have problems with the platform because of the community. In Toyhouse, only authorized people can see it.

But continuing on, the problem started because of my limitations, and what I did, which I will explain later, stressed him out. He wanted me to go to a party called Furfest, but I couldn't go because of family limitations that wouldn't let me go. I talked to him desperately and tensely, and in the end he understood and everything worked out. At that time, I was very ashamed and a little afraid of hurting him in writing and what might happen if I vented and said something that could end ourand un"relationship because we hadn't even confessed our feelings for each other.

But I only considered it because it seemed very much like a reationship crush first and later boyfriend

There came a time when I seemed to be jealous of certain things that were happening, and as time went by, he began to isolate himself from me, all because of the texts I wrote, which I meant for the best for us, but for him, what I wrote in my outburst, even though it wasn't meant to be malicious, when it comes to issues that involve friends, he became vulnerable and sensitive, and as I said before, he began to because of that. He didn't talk to me about what was getting him down so we could work it out amicably, but he was so afraid of hurting me that he preferred to stay silent until he got tired of it and broke up with me. That's what happened. He broke up with me because he says it's not working anymore and he doesn't know how to explain it properlyBut, moving on, the problem started because of my limitations, and what I did, which I'll explain later, stressed him out. He wanted me to go to a party called Furfest, but I couldn't go because of family limitations that didn't allow me to go. I talked to him desperately and tensely, and in the end he understood and everything worked out. At the time, I was very embarrassed and a little afraid of hurting him in writing and of what might happen if I let it out and said something that could end our relationship, because we hadn't even confessed our feelings for each other.

Because of yesterday's text, I decided to let off steam some friends of mine that I consider faithful in my personal circle and they understood and explained each one with their own opinion and experience and because of all this it affected me so much that I couldn't sleep and I got insomnia and cried.

And probably before he answered what was going on it was a weight on his conscience and he got better when I talked to him but it was very quick that he got better and he got better a bit quicker than me and it takes me a while to get better since I'm more delicate in more personal relationships that involve me.

Final explanation: in short, it didn't work out very well, he shouldn't have rushed into it and he's from a state/city that's smaller than mine, but that might be better, but I'll find someone better, maybe he's already into someone else too, even if he doesn't know it.He may have a crush on someone outside the server I'm on that my friends or someone in their personal life or another user has or is crushing on a female friend of mine.

Because he's muscular and all, there's a lot of things about taste preference, the question of video games and content that we have very few in common and considences because there's a lot that I know and like and he doesn't care and he's afraid, it was more like personal conversation and I already like indie horror games, games that have a sequel, vhs horror animation and Creepypasta mainly from AUS of sonic. I've read so much on the fandom wiki and some to explain better on video, it may be that the relationship didn't work out for other possibilities and reasons that in real life I don't know if he would behave talking and seeing the family issue,If it were easier, I'd like to meet someone not so far away or from my hometown.

What happens: if I take too long to post, because I'm giving time to myself and to the platform, because of this relationship that I wanted to work out but ended up not working out as it was supposed to, but I'm going to see if there's a way of drawing it up.

Notes:I'm doing my part of the "art trade" that I'm considering unifished trade that I'd do my part and he's not yet but more towards one sided trade what I'm doing my part he's never done his, it's been 6 days without progress of the art and 5 days that I'm doing the same art

Thank you for reading my rant and the news.

- KivBunny