Dont continue pretending this pain is away when its screaming inside you,slowly draining your will to live. Putting up a happy face everyday doesnt mean youre happy, and it wont help hiding it, cause just like a muderer who tries to hide the evidences, one day someone will find out your secret, and then the whole castle build by your lies will collapse, and itll hurt even more, dont wait to be exposed like this, start caring about your mental health, because its no use stay waiting to hear the words you want to hear. "Itll be okay. Everything will be fine.", and besides, i have a feeling you dont even believe in this phrases anymore, so lets stop being so passive, and start to act, go out with some friends, talk to them, and i really mean to talk to them, not just come up with your automatic responses, because theyll get you to a dead end (literally), and i can tell you why you dont want tjat to happen, and its because youre so loved and to your being be brought to this universe, you dont imagine how much your parents fought to have their biggest achievement, you, and you dont know how much they love you, and i say you dont and cant, because this isnt something so simple, like you can put in a cup and drink, no, this love is an ocean, immeasurable ane so vast the least we can do to show is act, and when i say act, it means that we can show care to show love, we can say words like "i love you", but this burning passion isnt just these words. Its something so much deeper, and to your parents, this love is multiplied, because they are so proud of you for just being you, cause your being itself is enough to feel happy to them, cause theyll remember everything THEY went through, and to think it all came to be you, its really something to cry with joy, because its a miracle you were born the way you were, and to have this comfort, such comfort your parents may never have had in their life till now, you are the reason that your parents keep going, remember, gold's worth nothing to them if youre not by themself, so take this lesson, let gold pour on those who want your bad, dont make a fight about it because your strongest weapon is simpathy and love, never forget its best to fall shooting, that is, trying, than to pull the trigger on yourself, because thats an end so cruel, because youll never get to do anything more, think about it, what would you achieve with this rope around your neck? Cause itll only bring sadness to this world, youll make it grayer and become a porcentage in another random graphic on the internet. This storm has come to only make you stronger, but youll need to go through it first, so dont go alone, hold the hands of the relationships you have created, hold the hand of your friends and family, whoever you trust the most, and never let go, cause the ones that truly love you are the ones that matter the most in a world so careless about people.