SH MENTION

( Im telling what about in 2024 because I don't know who to yap about the story to do here y'all are 💔, not venting btw I think , if ur not comfortable with the mention / topic of it do not read )

SO like around September 5th - 15th 2024 my grandma came over for a reason (I aint telling y'all ) and she was gonna hang out for two weeks with us and grumpy me was just sitting down wearing my big shirt all sleepy, and my mom suggested me to go play on the water with my siblings but I was told to change my shirt , at the time my c-ts were healedish (to this day I can still see them) and when I went to change I put a double shirt on to cover then my mom walked in and said straight up "let me see ur arms" and THANK GOD. My room light was off and she was checking my arms she didn't see anything so she's like "are u c- tting" lucky me obviously told her "no" like like innocent me would never do such- anyways and then we got into a big argument yaya , few days later I do it again (the $H) and she ACTUALLY SEES THE C -TS like three days after I did it and she's like "what's that?" And I blamed it on the dishwasher. "Oh this? Oh yeah I was putting the dishes away and for some reason I got hit by the sharp thing on the top of the dishwasher" and I don't think she really bought it but she didn't say anything about it, and now everytime I do ($h) I have to be so careful because after those times she would sometimes look at my arm , oh and during the argument she said "if u ever start c-tting yourself I'ma beat your ass. " Like damn ma

ANYWAYS YEAH.

I did almost got caught recently due to me forgetting to put a hood on and just walking into the kitchen like my arms aren't fucking trees, and before my mom can look at me I fr ran to my room and calm back and said "it's cold " I had to do that like five times this month 💔💔

Im honestly telling y'all this because I like telling y'all stuff like this because I don't have someone to just "HEY CAN I TELL U A STORY ABOUT WHEN I ALMOST GOT CAUGHT C TTING MYSELF? " like that's a hard topic to even bring up soso SODA POP- anyways

I also don't mind teling y'all because it's not some memory that makes me emotional anymore (except the argument me and my mom had which is why I didn't say what happen, I actually think I told y'all before but wtv)

Oml the amount of times I was stressing in the doctor appointments recently when they were doing a check up because my c - ts were a bit more visible then it should've been at the time ( they weren't fresh but they weren't healed if yk what I mean? Idk the word)

I fr had to reread this shit and kinda fix the word cut

#YAPYAPS