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no warnings gang just remember in this past era that dazai's name is Shūji Tsushima🦄🦄💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

TSUSHIMA'S ( DAZAI'S ) POV .

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I don't like meeting new people. Sometimes everybody feels the same. Adults are boring, teenagers think they're so cool when they're just embarrassing, and kids are loud. If this is supposed to be life, then I don't think I want to live like this no longer. It feels like life is a recycle that happens over and over again. What's even so interesting about it, though? If you were to tell me you'd wanna die at 90, I'm not hesitating on shouting "boring!" At you.

I was lost in thought for a moment, I didn't realize I've been staring at the floor for so long. I felt a gloved hand touch the top of my head.

` ` Shuji, are you alright? ` `

A voice asked me gently. That was Yushiko, my adoptive mother. While I am grateful she took me out of the streets, I still kinda miss the streets.. If that even makes sense. It'd be more entertaining then this stupid school boy life.

` ` I'm okay, mama. ` ` I answered my mom quietly, I didn't make eye contact with her cause whenever I lied to her, I could always tell she didn't believe me because of the look in my eyes.

A soft sigh left my mom's mouth, she then bent down to my height level.

` ` Shuji, what are you thinking about? ` `

I wish there was like a no button you could press if somebody tried talking to you further. I don't like long conversations unless they're actually serious.

` ` About how boring life can be.. ` ` I spoke quietly, not wanting to look at her. I don't know why I felt shaky all of a sudden, my heart pounding quite a bit.

My mom had an unamused and rather.. Confused expression on her face as she didn't understand me. Of course she wouldn't.

` ` What's so boring about it to you? ` `

I hesitated to speak for a moment, but after a few seconds I spoke quietly. I don't know why sharing my thoughts with someone else made me feel surprised. Or shocked? Either one of those two words.

` ` The people, the regularly things people do, animals, nature, kids my age.. Heck. Even I don't find interest in any sports or activities or stuff like that. ` `

My mom has amused look on her face, lightly chuckling to herself.

` ` Maybe it's because you haven't found the things that'll make you feel complete, Shuji. ` `

I paused, letting her words sink into my ears.. And, well, my brain as well. Maybe my mom was right.

` ` Are you sure..? ` `

I asked hesitantly, giving her a dependent look that meant 'You better not be lying to me'.

My mom smiled and then gently patted my head.

` ` I'm sure, Shuji. I used to be just like you when I was your age. ` ` My mom spoke softly to me. I couldn't help but nuzzle my head slightly into the patting.

She knows best.

.. so uhm! How do we feel about this one gang !!! IM SO SORRY THHIS TOOK FOREVER HHELP ME