Everything Sammy said here is true. For as long as I remember, I had the fear of making people upset and the fear of talking about how I feel.

I've been talking with Sammy for a while, and he was able to see my change in emotion easily (even if I was still acting happy). And for a few months now, he's been talking me into being open about it.

Originally I wasn't going to be open about this at all, because I didn't want to seem like an attention whore, and I like trying to be as professional as possible on this account, but Sammy making a post for me gave me the courage to speak for myself about it.

You may recall my post from the past about me having a problem with saying no to people. This is still a problem for me, because I don't like seeming rude, or making people upset. But it's gotten to the point where it's been ruining my mental health, and I didn't see it until Sammy pointed everything out to me.

I won't give specifications, but because of this, it has led to people using me like a tool or an object. I've been yelled at, made fun of, and even had some people raid on my private time just to make me look stupid or yell at me again.

And I feel like these people think they can do this, because I have a hard time saying no, and I do my best not to be rude to others.

I'm not going to say who, because it's no one on this site, and I respect people's privacy, even if they treated me rudely.

to summarize:

Yes, I have been pulling a happy act on my social media,

Yes, I have been mistreated online causing me to fear everything I say or do,

I really want to thank Sammy @Previously_Samawan too, for giving me the courage to speak up about this, and trying to help me for months about this. He's a really good friend. If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't be making this post, nor would all of you know now about this information.

Thank you for reading.