Yes. I wanted to talk about this because i am going pretty bad at the moment. I am stuck in a mentally deranged loop,of what happened with the incident of my father,leading me mentally broken.

I never thought a relation would go this far, forcing to go on violence and tackled me down,being slapped,being verbally abused. Affection teasing and more. It's alot to handle even if I do wanna change or even if i do wanna feel better,but when you're stuck with a mental health,it's making it alot harder.

I'm starting to take more medecine than i should already,wich is already a bad issue. I do hope this will change in the morning. Because this struck me down to the point I'm near to a breaking point.

Sometimes i just wish i had a father who truly knows me.