I don't know what to say, I felt depressed. I was focusing too much on my Youtube channel: how to get more views, how to get more watch time. I ran out of ideas to improve my content, it was driving me bananas. I was at the point where if one more thing happened I'd start considering finishing myself off. That one more thing did happen. I started thinking of outrageous things, I even drew myself in a noose. Before I did anything, I called my long-time friend @QuakerDX . I talked to him and he helped me realize that I was tripping.

What does this mean for my Youtube channel?

It means I will be taking a break until I figure out what I can do to release new content, instead of pressuring myself to make good content fast (I was considering going back to triple uploads with the increased quality). I need to relax and re-find my space on Youtube. Find the love that I once had for it again.

I love you guys, I'm sorry I have to go away for a while.

Its not you, its me.