I came back from the theater and I gotta say it was the worst experience Ive gone thru

Not because the show was shit and because it reminded me of the worse pain Ive been and still going thru right now as we speak...

The show was about teenagers. At first I thought it be like a show that it going to give a advice to teens in a somewhat cringe comedic way.

However, and the middle in also gone thru the topic of a complicated relationship between a teen and his parents.

and that's...where...it all hit...

My relationship with my mother is terrible and this show reminded me of that...

and in that...moment...

i felt like shit...

i felt anger...

i felt like cutting my wrist just to deal with a pain that its easier to deal with and that will actually end...

Cause my terrible relationship with my mother hurts more then cutting my wrist a hundred times, heck even more then doing it a thousand times...

And I hate it so much...cause it doesn't seem to end...

Her constantly arguing with me over the tiniest stuff...

Her always trying to control me...

Her always changing up her mood...

Her always denying her mistakes when I try to confront her...

Her always complaining and not liking anything I do...

and it just...keeps...on...going...over and over again

"sigh"

This 2 weeks I will spend time at her house and I wont be able to draw or be active here as she will be constantly behind my back...

"sigh"

I don't even know anymore if the saying "she still cares about me" or "she does this out of love" applies anymore as she also constantly ask me if I still love her...

and I'm done trying to find an excuse for her...