So.... i've been under a lot of stress lately.. Grandpa has now been in the hospital for a week after his blood pressure was 600+. Yesterday, he was napping, he always snores.. however, he just went quiet... we all got worried and then the nurses came in and shook him and he wouldn't get up but the he eventually woke up. after that happened, they wanted to put him into a medically induced coma for an hour to do a spinal tap (A procedure where they put you to sleep and remove excess fluid from your spine). We all were nervous but he came out okay.. Idk how much longer i can keep it up...

I'm breaking so much lately....i don't know how much longer i can go without cutting... and just trying to smile... haha... it's so funny... I'm trying hard to stay happy... So much that feeling sad is so alien to me... I can't even fucking cry unless i snap.... and it's happened two nights in a row... I'ma see if i can stay with my aunt today... I don't feel safe in my house after the break in..

I'm sorry if this made you guys sad... i will try to do art still... but, just say hi to me here and there.. I hope ya'll have a good day/night.. Sleep well, and have a good day...

i love you all so much.. and thank you guys for making like a little bit better... I appeciate it so much... more than you all could ever know...