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I’m done.

I’m done with Gamejolt.

I no longer want to be “Moon”

I have, re written this I don’t know how many times now.

I want to come off as neutral and honest as possible. I have no ill intent to anyone on Gamejolt when this is being written or to Gamejolt itself.

As known, I started Gamejolt about 2 years ago. Most post from then have been deleted. At that time something traumatic happened that I only realized now, wasn’t okay. I got manipulated and groomed by a user here. It didn’t bother me for a long time. I thought I was being a good friend. I left, because I got depressed for other reason. Came back during the start of Covid, I had no one so I returned. I met some amazing people. It was a cringey time of my life but in the end, I grew up with amazing people. I was so happy. Of course, I met an asshole who I got close to who then disappeared without a word, leaving me wondering what the hell i did wrong and dependent for someone else in my life. Hanged out with people, “died” a few times. Met someone else, who became my very best friend. He and I were inseparable in the best way possible. I wish I could be friends with someone like I was with him. He knows every little thing about me. He disappeared, came back, and suddenly he liked me. A lot of shit happened with that. Afterwards it wasn’t the same. Left a huge scar on our relationship. Gave me some severe anxiety about relationships. He disappeared and now I’m here.

That all happened when I was considered a kid. I shouldn’t have been here. I never should of joined this website. No matter how much I enjoyed the time I spent with the people here and how much fun I had. I shouldn’t of ever joined. At least not as early as I did.

Now I’m older. A teenager to be more precise.

I’d like to say, with all the bad shit that happened, I am the main one to blame. I was a young dumb idiot.

Besides that, the reason I stated what I did was so I could lead up to me saying that this account carries trauma for me. It carries years of cringey post and a brand I can hardly stick to. God, I cant see the word Moon anymore without thinking of this god awful account.

I know people could give less of a shit about me, but I have a right to speak. The whole brand I put up was a “nice, obedient, kind motherly” type. I was a little pussy ngl-

Not saying I’m not now, but my backbone is in the making thanks <3

Anyways off topic, I’m out. I’m sick of being Moon, expecting to act a certain way, being anxious over the shit I post, all of the eyes on me that hardly give a shit. I’m done.

i need a hefty break from the internet. I hate this account. I hate how I’m a whole different person here.

Alright, now for the sad part ig.

I’ve been debating this choice for the last couple of days until this posted. No matter what I tell myself I know this is the right choice.

But even so, I am going to heavily miss a lot of people here. I will not be sharing my contacts though. I need to get rid of Moon for MY growth. Moon’s friends aren’t mine. They only know the things Moon will say to keep up their image. The people who knew moon, don’t know me.

There are two people I specifically wanna call out, they were big impacts on me and my Gamejolt account. Of course, they aren’t the only ones. I love and will always cherish the others I’ve talked to here and for the last couple of days. And thank you to everyone who spent my final days as moon with me, even when not knowing.

Maz, I know we drifted away a good lot, but you were my first friend when I returned back. You helped me gain at least 2/3 of my followers. You always supported me, and led me in the right directions. You were always a huge inspiration to me. I know you don’t do art much anymore, but back when you posted daily, I always gawked at how you improved through each post. God, how you’ve gotten so much better. I’m so proud of you, of course, not just for art, for yourself too. @mazou

Jamie, it would be wrong of me not to add you to this post. You were my best friend. No matter what shit happened between us. I’m really glad I met you. You lifted me up from such a dark place. You made me so happy, you listened to my stupid rants and stories night after night. I’m not shocked you got tired of me. I will always have a good place in my heart for you, of course, there’s a scar there, but you changed my life a lot. I stand by when I say I wouldn’t be walking here if it weren’t for you. You defiantly were a friendship I had that I probably won’t ever have again, thank you. So much. @FormulaFanboyFFIB

Also, DAO, i am so sorry I’m not able to keep my promise. For context, I promise DAO I’d stay on Gamejolt. Look where we are now.

Again, there are so many people here who I would love to name but while writing this I can hardly hold myself up. Lots of love to all of my friends here, all of them made an impact in my life. If it bring any comfort, I’m no longer dependent on people, I now have many friends who are helping me through. Of course, they can’t replace from the past, but they 100% can help me for the future.

Even though this is goodbye, I’ll make sure to check in here and there, just for safe measures.

Thank you for reading,

Lots of love,

JJ :]