A nightmare come true... can't do what I want.

No sources to freely pick.

Channel being locked behind the kids section.

No more Deltarune remixes.

I can feel the inevitable...

I can't listen to my childhood remixes anymore...?

I can't watch Smeshariki the way I want to?

For so many years I found joy somehow...

But why... why shall it be taken away through restrictions?

I am sorry. I am very close to burst into tears.

I don't want to do age vertification just to watch whatever I want. I'm old enough to do WHAT I WANT. I'm not a little child. Why can't I? I will never be quiet about this. It hurts. It hurts knowing that I literally can't watch my favorite show in the whole world, because I'd get flagged as a kid. I know it's not until 10 days, but still... I love Smeshariki. You cannot take that away from me. I shouldn't be beaten to the ground and punished for watching something that fills my heart with joy.

I know it's a kids show, but I DON'T CARE. They brought me happiness, literally. I love anything about them. I don't deserve this pain. To some people, they may say "You're just overreacting!" But... is it really when you love something that brings you joy and you get punished for doing so? :<

I already hate my life as it is. I hate myself. I'm begging this never happens. I just want to be free. Why does it feel like... I'm locked up for? Again? It's... like it's looping all over again... Are... they going to find me? I... I hope they don't find me.. I'm generally scared, will they find me? Will they hurt me again by bullying..??

Never mind... I'm going off-topic... I'm sorry, I think I need to calm down a little. This whole thing is... no one likes this crap. This is censorship now. This is data harvesting. Why is it not illegal?

I feel too much happening...

I'm... I hate what's going on right now... and recently... I've been all over the place. I keep getting memories I don't want to remember. I don't know why. I wish I was lying. I'm sorry, guys. But... I will try to continue drawing for all of you. I will try to find a way around this so beautiful YTPMVs can be made again.

Sorry I have been acting strange for a while now.