I have been very down lately and....scared because ummm..my adopted son...really really does hate me and....I feel like giving up everything....I keep thinking deep down he does care about me...but I am slowly giving up...I feel like I am not good enough and....I am not...useful...I been also having trouble irl...and...other stuff...I have been...worried that my boyfriend doesn't love me or....my friends and...I feel like my....I guess soon to be son hates me....I really really have been thinking about killing myself but I haven't because I promise myself I wouldn't...hurt myself....so....bill if your reading this I am sorry...that I am a worthless mom...and...I am sorry that you don't see me good enough for you...and...other stuff that I do.....