now every since the breakup, gamejolt started feeling different.

i didnt have the motivation to make totalroad's spectacular time machine 2024 because the motivation just wasnt there.

and yes, im not cancelling tannouncements, but i might drop it early and just, dip.

honestly its not like im making content for anyone, and everyone just sees me as some clown nowadays, so who cares?

at the end of the day im only doing this for myself. why bother trying to make quality content? when im the only fucking person enjoying it?

go on call me a predator, jaxon, call me a pussy, everyone.

honestly i just dont have the motivation i had last year, making bangers left and right, and honestly, i dont have friends here anymore, so whats the point?

i think im also the problem. i think i have been focusing to much on numbers lately. like followers, likes. initially i never focused on those that much, but now im desperate at this point. ONE like. i think i need to stop.

and i also have an addiction. trying to reconnect with friends who I'VE ditched myself, constantly looking for a person i can have fun with in this seemingly endless desert.

and even when i do "quit", i still come back, i still make accounts constantly trying to socialize. i'll admit it, @hotsaucenews is me. and honestly, you probably knew that.

see you march first, or earlier, or later.