I want to say this clearly and calmly, because I know I’ve hurt people and I take responsibility for that.

First, I’m sorry. Not just in words

I know I’ve said sorry before, and I understand that apologies don’t mean much if my behavior doesn’t change. That’s on me.

I’ve made mistakes, and I’ve hurt people I care about. I feel guilty about it, and I don’t want to keep repeating the same pattern. I’m not proud of how I’ve acted, and I understand why some of you see me in a negative way right now.

About stepping away from certain friendships: I didn’t do that out of hate or anger. I did it because I felt like I was causing harm, and I didn’t want to keep hurting someone I care about. But I also understand that leaving doesn’t fix everything, and I’m thinking more seriously about how to actually improve instead of just disappearing.

I’m trying to change

but I know that saying that isn’t enough. So what I’m focusing on now is actually working on my behavior, taking things more seriously, and being more careful with how I treat people.

If you’re upset with me, I understand. If you need distance, I respect that. I’m not asking anyone to instantly forgive me. I just want you to know that I’m aware of what I’ve done, and I’m trying to do better in a real way.

Also, if I take some distance from interactions, it’s not because I hate anyone

it’s because I’m trying to avoid causing more harm while I work on myself.

Again, I’m sorry to everyone I’ve hurt. I mean that. And I’ll try to prove change through my actions, not just my words.