Hey so, I've made a lot of promises I haven't kept on here, like certain milestone goals and what-not. So I wanna apologize for those expecting something like that.

My motivation has been absolutely horrible lately and have been battling some personal stuff, and finally went to acknowledge it with my family, and on top of that, the world has been kinda scary due to larger events that have happened. Things are getting better, but I've had the suspicion for a while but I'm 90% sure I have ADHD. So focusing, accomplishing tasks, and staying on task has been a little more difficult for me lately, and on top of my perfectionism to get everything done, my mental state is struggling.

I originally planned to take a break after Joltober since I pushed myself everyday to get it done, but that only pushed my lack of motivation further. I know I shouldn't be apologizing for something like this but, sorry for kind of leaving this account in limbo lately.

So here's some more positive things that have happened and will happen!

• Been finding a lot of new bands and music I've been enjoying (looking at you My Chemical Romance)

• I have a Christmas list of mainly Murder Drones and Invader Zim things, was it not obvious enough?

• Next year I'm gonna try and put my mental health first, try and take care of myself more

• Gonna start watching anime and actual good cartoons next year (to hyperfixate over and get more animating inspiration)

• Got Christmas decorations up and already feel more cozy and happy (I know it's not even Thanksgiving but Christmas is the best, so screw it!)

• I will post a room tour at some point, probably after Christmas once I get some new posters!

• Once we reach 600 followers, I promise FOR REAL this time, I will make an epic community for all you weird people in fandoms and the alt community! Still thinking of a name so suggestions are welcome!

And I think that's about it, if you got anymore questions for me, I'll try my best to respond! And thank you for all the kind words on my other posts from last month, I really appreciate it! I wanna try and engage more with you guys, so if you'd like to see me post more casual convo posts and not just art, lemme know, maybe like weekly updates could be fun?

Thanks again for the all the support, good luck out there gremlins! (idk what to call you guys at this point xd)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bliqQovSh4

help me i listened to this on loop while typing this, cant tell if i lost or gained braincells- owo