to answer some things

a lot of people think i'm getting blocked from gamejolt, which is definitely a possibility, but not a predictable one unfortunately

but i mainly said this because of certain feelings and realizations

such as, yes, wanting to kill myself and wondering why anything i did was truly worth it

constantly thinking that i may never be enough for anyone really brings me down, especially always pinning the blame on myself, even when i'm not involved in anything

today i was pushed a little hard on myself, and still am not feeling good at all

right now i currently still feel like death is an option for me, but it's not something i'm actually GOING to do.

i'm sorry if i made anyone worry as that was not my intention to begin with, especially with someone as completely and utterly useless and pathetic as i am.

-stick