Heya, Phantom here!.... Just Phantom, anyway-
This change in username may appear random or sudden or reasonless to some, but I can assure you it has been long in the making, and boy do I have got my reasons for doing it.
Two main ones really.
Firstly: having to see "boi" every single day of my life for the past three or so years has made me cringe to death every time.
Secondly, and most importantly: Am I? Really? I'll explain what I mean in a second, backstory time.
Even though I haven't really spoken about this to anybody, I have been questioning my gender identity for the better half of two years by now (this much could be evident if you looked at my everchanging pronouns lol), always ping-ponging around different labels in my head, even having thoughts of transitioning mtf at various points in time.
At this point, "Endboi" was already being planned to be cut as a "precautionary meassure" of sorts, since it clashed with virtually any label I was thinking about, to the point where I ported my Scratch games over to GameJolt on more than one occation to preserve them in the case I deleted the former site's account since the names aren't changeable and all.
However, as of late, whenever I think of anything relating to gender, pronouns and whatnot, I end up reaching the same conclusion every time: "I could not care less about how I am refered to by nor percieved as in the slightest", and low and behold, as I did my last bit of research before making this post (I was actually going to come out as genderfluid before finding this out, and that's not quite right.) I found out "Gender Apathetic" is literally a gender identity that exists, which, as you could infer, describes literally this exact scenario and thought process... so I couldn't not use this particular label, come on.
And, again, since my identity is now the gender equivalent of a shrug, I'm not quite a "boi" anymore, now am I? So... just Phantom it is, simple as that, yup, so simple.
In general, everything is gonna stay the same in the personal side of things and the way I express myself since, again, I could not care less, I'm still gonna be male-presenting or whatever, just keep in mind you can call me by whatever the hell you want and I won't mind, I guess.
Though, through the one thing that did indeed change - my username - there are two small little issues that arise with this change:
1. As my past self mulled over so much, what do I do with my Scratch account now? Again, I sure as hell can't change the name of it, though I'm not really gonna bother with that right now, I'll either make a new account and keep the old one around for archival purposes or kill it and reupload the games here again, idk.
2. Every single place that may have mentioned me in the past is now retroactively wrong about my username... whoops, minor inconvenience.
Anyway, now that all of that has been gotten over with, I'll be changing all of my other accounts' info to reflect these changes in a short moment, see ya whenever I post some other piece of art later, go follow FALSE FRIGHTS if you haven't already, or I will appear in your bed tonight. /th
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