i'm not ok anymore. i've gone insane I've lost my mind and sense of normality. i feel like nothing is real anymore. i feel like the people i know are fake and not real. i'm stuck in a hell cycle every day for so long now i can't even remember. i broke down at school today and had to go to the office. i almost cried. im lost and alone and i have nobody to guide me through rn. i wish i could tell my parents but they wont understand. the one person who made me feel loved left me. i have nobody to talk to and to keep me company. i lost a whole part of my mind that day. one whole piece i loved so dearly that made me happy. and its all gone now because of me. i did this. and now kyro refuses to even talk to me. my mental state has dropped completely. i dont even know who i am at this point. i feel like my love was false. i have nobody to talk to and to love me anymore. it's hard to find love when you're a guy like me you know...

i have to say this but ill shove it down a bit so spoiler warning...

[I'm thinking about killing myself because I'm growing so tired of this hell cycle and i cant take it no more. and nobody truly loves me anyways. if anybody is real and out there... please help me....]