I've been scared to go back to school because last term my dad threatened me and said "if I find any traces of you hurting yourself ever again I'll take you to the mental hospital" and I haven't done why self-harm since but today a massive rumour was spread about me and one of my friends that she's sent n*des (it's not true and it's discussing because she's 2 years younger than me) and some of the people that bully and pick on me heard about it and harassed me about it and now idk how much longer I can hold on because I've lost control of my thoughts and I'm constantly tormented by violent, suicidal and really upsetting thoughts and it's getting really bad to the point I cried on the bus ride home and this has happened in less than a full week back which is what I've been afraid of