Since May 21st, I've been having suicidal thoughts. this thought arose suddenly, and then grew into a desire, which I am desperately trying to knock off my thoughts and realize.

My mentality is completely shattered right now. The only thing stopping me from jumping out of the window is my life and my bf @hunzie_bunny ♥️. Who is actively trying to dissuade me from doing anything stupid. The only thing I can do is prepare for my exams and try not to ruin my life completely. I don't have time for creativity right now, as my priority is to avoid ruining my future.