Food is making me want to vomit.

I used to have a fear of eating human, everytime I ate meat it tasted like it now it feels like I don’t deserve to eat.

I hate vomiting a lot. The feeling sucks.

I just want to look how everyone wants me to look, I want to be pretty. Starving myself is a better option

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another mention of vomit:

Nobody respects my boundaries, they touch me weird, and I don’t say anything about it. I hate it when people touch my thighs or face. It makes me feel weird

Even if I do, they get mad at me

Everytime I think of specific people touching me it makes me feel sick

I feel like shit so much, waking up feels like a chore, I get almost no sleep every night, I don’t eat.