So there's one friend who owns a discord server with like 40 people, and I was a admin right? However, I didn't really want to be admin, and admit that I wouldn't be good at it either. 1: Because I'm lazy. 2: I just like to be... I don't know, "controlling"? Maybe? I really don't have that "ur ban" in me, so that means 3: I don't seeing people getting kicked or banned for reals-ies. I don't know, it's just kinda mean. LOOK, I know they have broken a rule, but I'd rather give them a timeout then a "bye bye, to the shadow realm you go". Plus, I look into their views, it's either really misunderstanding the rules or they really like to have fun. I don't know anything else other than those two, but I don't..... Let's say, feel right to punish them...

I just... Kinda hate punishing...

I don't know, maybe it's me being stupid, me being too sympathetic, maybe really just me being me or stuff. I don't know...

It goes the same blocking; I'd hate- LIKE, DESPISE- to see people getting blocked or maybe me blocking them. I wouldn't mind if they block me (which means I did something wrong) but I WOULD NEVER..... EVER block someone. That feels really, really fucking bad... It's like I'm erasing them, hating them, or even like, murder, at some point! Because it's sucks, I'd rather deal with them or go somewhere else! I don't know, it's painful for me.

Like I said, you can block me, but I'd wanna see you when you even hate me. I don't know, it's just... A natural thing I do.

It's kinda hard, maybe I'm just slacking or pitiful or dumb but... Yeah. That's why, I'd never be a good admin. I really just wanna hang out and be with friends or neophytes (new people) and simple... Stay. At least I wanna acknowledge their existence. I don't know if this mindswill change, but I just wanna be there, and want them to be there.

It's just... Better that way.