I hate this so much. I’ll never be like anybody else ever. I’ve never been like anybody else. It hurts so bad. I just wanna know what it feels like. I want to punch something, I want to stab the wall. I want to scream. I’ve always been like this and it feels similar to having been born with no limbs. I only slightly know how it feels to be normal from cheap replacements. But it’s all just a cheap fabrication. I now know what I’m missing out on. I really hate this. I feel so much more than other people. I think so much more than other people. I only have limitations and it hurts so bad. Most people’s problems are external and they can at least directly do something about it. But you can’t fight something internal, all you can do is hold on as it eats at your flesh from the inside. It hurts. Oh god it hurts. I can only distract myself. That’s all I can do. I hate this. Why was I chosen to be like this? Why me? What did I do to deserve this? I can’t handle it. My fear eats at my soul and my limitations eat at my determination. I hate this.