And by thoughts I just mean bad thoughts... Like how I'm a horrible human being, or too insane that I fuck everything up without meaning to... Like the one time I literally almost hurt my friend, just cause my anger suddenly took over....

I don't know why I'm such a delusional psychopath.... I don't like it... I don't like myself...

The scars I have reflect that

I just.... I just want peace... I want to get through the hell I'm going through but it just keeps getting worse and worse and I just want to tear my heart out of my chest....

And to make matters worse, when I get rejected, or feel rejected, I easily break... And then I'm just numb... I don't even cry.... Because I can't....

All of these, and more, are the reasons I hate myself.....

Sorry to tell you guys this, I'll shut up now.... Doesn't matter anyways cause I don'tatter, and neither does this article no one will ever truly read...