if you care so much about those fucking games, CRY ME A FUCKING RIVER. I am begged almost everyday for this shit, not gonna out who and whatever. Cry me a river if you care, cry so much I can build a pool, and swim in your sorrows carelessly like a lazy river.

Am I seriously getting mad over this shit? YES. I AM. I SAID I'D LEAVE, what? 5 MONTHS ago? ohhhh and guess what, I FUCKING came back. I did the SAME SHIT, again, again, AND AGAIN. I'm so fucking tired. I cannot put this anger and frustration or whatever, into words.

I hate myself for letting this shit crawl into my skin every day and remind me of what a bad person I really am, hell i'll even say i'm a whore. Saying shit to everyone, getting too comfortable, using some people, which I did not mean to do.

this doesn't just apply to discord and all. some of this applies to real life, not that i'm saying I slut myself around n shit, but, I do get too comfortable, say shit I shouldn't say, and make people's life worse. I ruin myself to try and fit in.

genuinely, this is almost a goodbye. i'm gonna sit and think. I can't really handle this anymore. i'm not saying i'll commit or some shit like that, i'm not sick. just angry, frustrated,

whatever.