One of my irl friends told the counselor about how I wanted to kms, and apparently now I'm planning to do it later? I'm sorry, but what? No, all of the times I wanted to were impulsive, I haven't ever PLANNED to commit. I don't know which of them told her, but now if she sends my mom proof, it's probably from posts here, meaning I'm FUCKED. ...I'm gonna loose my boyfriend, I'm gonna lose my oomfs, I'm gna loose Turtle, and my irl friends? They'll loose me bc if I get sent to a facility, I'm not gonna talk to them ever again.

This is why I don't like to vent. Get too comfortable and they'll learn everything js to tell someone else. And the worst part? They KNOW I don't go to counselors FOR. THIS. REASON. Also, yes, my stepdad makes fun of me and it hurts me. But he's not why I wna kms. Yes, he calls me a fatass and I get hurt so I wna get skinnier, that may be hurting me, but it's not me wanting to commit suicide!

How about next time, TALK TO ME to get the full. Fuckin. Story.