i'll be completely real and honest with my feelings and thoughts. in short, i feel like my games, in general, are all gonna end up turning out either bad, stuck in development hell, or straight-up canceled

to note down, this isn't any of the team members' fault. it's my fault, it's all my fault.

i feel like i have poorly directed the team and pointed them in the wrong directions to do stuff i couldn't do myself and i felt like i shouldn't have put my team members through this. i can't help but feel they have been only nice to me because they think i should be treated with respect, kindness, and all that because i helped with the fnaw story video and created such a passionate and potential-full fan game, and glad they got the chance to help with it.

i know i really shouldn't be making this post because of this, but it's something that has been stuck in my head and body for days now and it's only now coming back to try and eat me up alive.

i only have 2 things left to say.

to my entire team:

1. i am sorry for putting you through a possibly painful experience and quite possibly forcing you to do this. i feel like my directing is bad, very bad.

2. 2 questions to my team, to my followers; to the entire fnaw community:

   2a. do you think i am a good person overall to hang out with?

   2b. do you think i am a good director for my own games?