All of my irl friends think I'm a fucking mistake, and they all betrayed me.

My cousins hate me.

Nobody is a true friend to me.

It's all fake.

I'm faking my happiness.

I've never had happiness ever.

I've always been extremely depressed, and I never wanted to be my true mean self, so I hide my sad feelings and act happy with others.

It's all fake.

I've tried killing myself numerous times.

I hate my life.

I'm always crying myself to sleep.

If my mom and grandparent didn't die, I would have true happiness, but instead I have false happiness.

Nothing can make me happy.

I'm such a dickhead and a bitch.

I hope you know this.