I am thinking many would not know, but I actually do create logo designs (I actually went to make 2 now) and honestly they are very fun to do))))) I don't make them insanely fancy, just fun and nice to look at.

I made 2 more a few months ago for my college projects and I really love anything that I can put my OCs on. I don't want to share them here because I am a little bit shy (I did share one a really long time ago to be honest).

I was wondering if anyone would like to ask me to make cute logo designs for anything, because I'd like to help others in things they find difficult or cannot do. I'm not doing this expecting anything though, just a lot of fun)))))

Now, the second thing... I am really shy to ask, but...

Am I really a [[BIG SHOT]] if I have no control over who I want to be...? I know, to you guys I truly feel like one, but I am not sure in my own life at the moment. (It's fine if you cannot understand me very well, I speak in a way many wouldn't get)

There's like... other things that happen...

I fell in love with some woman in real life and I want to be with her, but when you live with parents that hate this stuff so much that... never mind.

I'm just... very confused right now, and kind of scared. I've been thinking, for so, so long... like 3 years... if I wanted to choose my own path... then everything would fall.

But... you know, parents want me to get married and all that stuff. What if... I didn't want to? What if the partner wasn't who I needed or wanted? They wouldn't understand a Deltarune/Smeshariki fan, will they?

And the "you MUST have kids" thing... like it's literally a must here... what if I'm too weak for any of that? I'm already as weak as I am... I work too much on my projects, I love to entertain others, I want to give whatever I can because I care about those who are truly kind and not putting on an act. Because I don't like people pretending to be nice.

I'm also super forgetful when I'm busy making a YTPMV or trying to draw something. I'm more focused on those than trying to eat or drink, so I then get very exhausted. I'm not sure how to counter this issue though...

I don't really think I'm... supposed to think about any of this marriage stuff now, but my family brings it up so often... it makes me so unhappy. Why is this a must-have? Why is having kids a must-have? It's seriously been brought up every time, even when me myself was still a child... I was even asked about marriage when I was barely a 10-year-old girl. Why...? I... I don't understand anything anymore.

I may try to quickly brush all this back under the rug, but... it will always just... come back.

I'm sorry if I wasted your time yapping about this. It bothers me very much.