I dont know what to do anymore im on the edge of giving up, my great great grandma broke her back. i keep relapsing, i cant close my fucking eyes without seeing gore from my memorys, i cant think for myself, im so fucking tired and i want to give up, im so done, i want to die badly but im too scared to try, i need help, but i refuse it, i cant mentaly handle a mental hospital, i will die if i go that route, but i need to do somthing, im trapped in a body and life i feel i deserve even though its killing me, we are close to a war, and i cant handle anything anymore, i feel like the person i love is moving farther and farther away from me, i feel like im getting punished in life for things i didnt do, i have no freinds irl, and all i do is cry and suffer in silence, i am dying. yet i show no-one, everywhere i go i see them i see the eyes of black creatures staring at me, i see people turn their heads and look at me when they really not, i am dying internaly and im thriving to others, ive ruined my own life and im scared i cant fix it. im tired, and i dont know what to do, i feel im deserving of nothing, id take everyones pain even if it ment me suffering in silince for others to feel better. i trust no-one becuase im tired of being hurt, im done and about to give up

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