im gonna go over the fnaw discord server problem first... so when i was in the server one time they were making a joke ship out of someone with the display name "mega" and ashley from wario ware... i wanted to play along with this joke and then without thinking about which one to pick i sent a picture of ashley that is fully clothed but still questionable and the people in the server considered it cp and i did not know that nor did i notice how it was so i said "lesson learned"...

and my anger apparently got the best of me so i sent a death threat without thinking about it and it now disgusts me beyond comprehension just thinking about how i did that...

it makes me sick knowing i did this and i feel guilty for it...

as for tfk... i unintentionally used her by saying i was hacked and she kept fighting for me... and when i admitted my actions of the fnaw discord thing and she got mad and had a serious talk with me and then left me leaving me with my guilt... i never wanted to use her... i just wanted to make her feel happy and safe around me... i never wanted it to end like this... we were friends for more than half a year and this is how it ends... tfk if you are reading this... just know i still care about you no matter what... nothing will change how i see you... you mean the world to me...

the other 3 people i admitted this too was @SpaceWolfGaming @The_Sans_Comic_Artist_2 and @GameCrafter90 and they all forgave me and i want you all to see that im a changed person now... the only reason i lied about what happened before was because i wanted to make a fresh start and i would eventually open up to you all and tell you this... but in advance im sorry and i will do whatever it takes to redeem myself and show i mean no harm to anyone... i will make things right... i promise...

(i dont want to feel alone again)