I'm fucking tired

I'm fucking tired of feeling alone

I'm tired of people who try to attack me

I had more than 5 narcissistic rages in less than 2 months

I beat one person up about 5 times (and ripped a few small pieces of his skin off on his right hand and arm ) because that person tried to humiliate and annoy me, I was about to end up having a warning report (I think that's what it's called)

people always think and tell me I'm some kind of neurotic maniac or a literally retarded person

why can't people be more considerate

why can't I act like a normal person