Man whenever I think back to when my hallucinations started I always think “wow they started at the worst time it could have started, ever!” and now I’m thinking of what if there’s a chance my delusions were so bad that they caused me to start hallucinating???
Because I was having delusions that my room wasn’t actually mine and that there’s was a image being projected around me and nothing around me was real and I was living inside of someone elses bedroom, and once this delusion started getting so bad I suddenly, coincidentally, started experiencing tactile hallucinations, and I remember it started with it feeling like there was someone else in my bed
What are the fucking chances that it just so happened to start the moment these delusions started

And I remember one time I was fighting off delusions and I got so desperate for affection that I hallucinated a hug so

Maybe this whole time it was my damn delusions that caused my hallucinations