like, on one hand, he does seem to of chilled out a little since we properly saw eachother for longer than 5 minutes, but at the same time, it's sort of hard to imagine him changing that much, even if ik over such a long time frame. the visit was only 1 hour, so he could've faked it, which is the hardest part:

figuring out whether he just faked it for the short period, or if he had genuinely changed. bc for the five minute visits, he would basically just ask some basic questions, since ofc, he knows nothing about me besides 'gay trans daughter', since we felt like we had to tell him just incase he found out and fipped his shit (he's catholic)

he acts supportive, uses she/her pronouns, but at the same time, i feel like he's only doing that so that my mum (who is extremely supportive, all of her side of the family is, even my grandparents, who know nothing about queer rights, or what any of the words mean, e.g. my nan had a habit of calling things 'woke' in a negative way, because she didn't know what it meant; but, once she got corrected, and she googled what it meant, she did stop to her credit).

my dad hasnt been obviously non-supportive, but again, it is really hard to tell if he's just faking being a supportive dad so that I don't cut him off when i turn 18. but, on a brighter note, the visit he's having on Boxing Day is only for an hour, which isn't that bad, AND it's infront of my mum grandad, nan and cousin, who, even if he is a prick, is VERY supportive. Like, aggressively supportive. the type of guy who will diss your entire existance if you're being a bigot. so, it isn't as bad as I thought it would be.

but yeah, that's all that i can think of that i wanted to rant about for now, i won't be making another post to rant, i'll just be editing this one for it.

and below this. 👇

All aditions are above this ^

but yeah, that's it. have a good day, night, whatever and enjoy your saturday as much as you can.

thank you for reading this <3