.. Humanity, we all hate it now don't we? Sure we do! But that doesn't make us any less human.

We are all human whether you're a furry, therian, otherkin, yumeshipper, artist, fan, mentally ill, stable, adult, child, or elder! We've all lived through our stages of life on the same planet as the same species with.. most importantly, our own opinions, abilities, boundaries, and feelings..

One should not be put above another, one should not be put below.. we're not playing tetris over here trying to figure out which role fits for people that.. quite frankly, you don't even know!

When you see a digital artist posting their art online, a painter showing off their paintings, a musician playing their music, or a person just being overall kind within a community.. you should not hold them up on a high pedestal, really.

I've had multiple people tell me that I'm their idol or that they look up to me and honestly.. that has put a lot of pressure on me, it's got me feeling like art is the only thing I am and will ever be good at.. I'm glad to be somebody people look up to, I'm glad that people think so fondly of me but.. you really shouldn't

See, I'm a hot mess and most of all, a young teenager.. I'm turning 15 in August, I am not someone who's got it all figured out! I'm just a clueless teenager on the Internet trying to find an escape from life's deadly problems.. not the next big thing.

While I don't think much of it at the time whenever somebody directly tells me I'm their idol or that they look up to me, it does slowly take a toll on my mental health.. everyone knows about me because of what? That's right, my art. Therefore if somebody is to look up to me then it is because of my art and if I can't produce this art in a timely manner, keep consistency, then what use am I to anybody? I pride myself in making my art appealing to the eyes but if that's the only thing I can do, the only thing people like me for then.. maybe I should quit.

I am a child, not some famous influencer and yes, I know, I've got a pretty small following in terms of the Internet but for me, over 1k is HUGE. I have an audience of over one thousand people that like to see my art, not me, but my art. What am I without it?

Should I take a break? Most certainly

Will I be taking a break? Absolutely not

While I should take a break from posting, take a break for my own health I literally CANNOT do that! This is my escape. Posting random bullshit helps to keep my mind off of everything else.

..please, just please, don't treat me like someone important. I am not important, I am not your idol, I am not someone for you to look up to. I am a troubled teen trying to escape from my problems.

Also shameless plug please follow me on Artfight for next month my user is Foxket on there obviously