My astrologist was right in something, this 20th year is my year of hard changes around. I gotta stop or I will collapse, what's wrong? Too mamy things, I will go one per one, this might take long:

- I really wanna keep doing my Partytober list I swear, I just need time. I don't wanna take my art as a job anymore, rather than just being hobbyist and practice about it to be better and improve my skills, with it, I wanna expand my knowledge and learn other medium like 3D, sculpture and animation.

- I'm healthy not ok, I can't do my good healthcare because I've got no control on myself and my actions, with that being said, my anxiety is the cause of my unstability and pressure into art or create content making it forget about myself and what I need.

- I'm recently in a status which I will move for the first time into another house once I get my driving license. YES I'm in driving lessons too, because my mother wants a house in the middle of the forest/mountain away of the city, so cuz of that, I need a car.

- My burnout is the reason I feel obligated to do these, not because you pressure me which I thank and appreciate you all because of that, it's because I self-demand it or I would feel useless and unproductive. I have many wips, many plannings, many stuff to do like the comics, commissions too, but... i feel so much pressure, a pressure that it's just me!

- Drawings... will come up time to time, I can't breathe, I honestly can't breathe, specially because of high school feeling again I am not enough, I'm not giving that much I have to bring.

- As last thing, my emotions and feelings are uncontrollable that I just get lost and experiment paranoia and confussion. I get mad too fast, I cry when I don't want to, I laugh when it's not even the right moment. So emotional unstability, what a new, I have to change to good and control myself, I have never been able to control my emotions at all, so now is the chance.

Once again, thanks for reading, and wish y'all the best of the best. Love y'all, you're being so supportive and kind with me, I love your memes, your comments, everything, every comment makes me smile (less the trolls and children that just wanna fuck around) brings me satisfaction. Which thanks so much for ur support 💚