Hello everyone,

My absence has lasted longer than I imagined it would, but nonetheless the only thing I can do is move forward.

There were multiple personal reasons that went into what I now see as a total creative block, not many I want to get into, and they compounded on top of one another, and it wore me out completely. When I started having physical symptoms start showing, I knew I had to take a step back.

For context: About 8 years ago, I was diagnosed with a tumor on my brain stem. This caused severe problems at the time, but luckily, me and my family found an amazing neurosurgeon who was able to patch me up with little to no complications in the long-term.

And for the next several years, I was perfectly fine, albeit occasional pressure headache.

About 1 1/2 years ago now, I started having a lot more head pain, and issues with my vision. This was due to the amount of stress I put upon myself, and the amount of time I was spending staring at a monitor.

I'm not just a game developer, I am also an animator, and I made most of my money from doing that, since I had to take a step back though, I had to stop doing that as well. I put my focus in other areas for the time being. Which turned into an almost 2 year mental fight with myself which led me into an even deeper depression.

I've had to switch jobs to one that requires a lot more of my time. The only free time I have almost everyday is after 6PM, which I allocate to my family, girlfriend, and taking care of myself. By the end of that, I have much less time for creativity. When I tried to do everything, something always got neglected, and I didn't like that. I like doing things properly, ending up with an almost "perfect" product, especially when it's something I care a lot about.

I regret I didn't say something sooner, I'm not even sure what I was worried about. I'm pretty sure I was just disappointed in myself.

I am also recovering from being sick from Covid (Finally got me) so I'm sorry if this post isn't super exhilarating. I am still a bit nauseous. I'm feeling better usually nowadays though.

Rest assured, I have not forgotten about anybody or anything. I will be back.