so, last night I got in a heated argument with my now ex bf. I didnt wanna break it off yet my friends told me to, the relationship may seemed healthy on the outside with the funny convos I posted but it really isnt. it was one of the rare moments that my ex was nice to me, you see, the entirety of the relationship was him insulting me constantly and just being an jackass, I took it because I loved him. he would give me a bit of affection to not make me leave, it was his way to manipulate me. it was only so long till I realized this was an genuinely toxic relationship and it wasnt going anywhere. I didnt wanna break it off because im afraid of being lonely and shit like that. I was never happy in the relationship like I claimed I was, I just put on an act. about last night, he told me that we were "never dating" like we totally didnt tell each other we loved each other sometimes and we matched pfps, and when I asked him out on christmas eve, he said yes. he threw that shit away like it was nothing. I cried myself to sleep that night, it wasnt fun. especially since I loved him a lot and I cherished our moments together, even if it was a rare instance. though, I was unhappy in the relationship and how shitty he treated me. I just wanted to make it seem I was happy and I would take the mistreatment. anyways, thanks for listening. ily guys. - Charli/Ava <3