Taking A Break:

I've been experiencing an unhealthy amount of stress and anxiety to the point where it's become nearly life threatening to my mental health and physical health too.

I'll likely be taking a break but if I never come back to this account then it's been settled that I've moved on. I don't know if I'll make a new account and start fresh or if I'll never appear on the face of social media ever again.

Regardless on what I do I wanted to say thank you.

#artfulist #announcement #goodbye #pixelcat

Dear Gamejolt:

I wanted to say thank you to everyone who's followed me. Your kind words and love mean the world.

I especially wanted to personally thank the people who supported me and stayed with me when I was at my lowest. I know everyone has good and bad days but I learned that my feelings are valid and that my words do carry meaning even if they're silly. That I'm supported and loved even though it feels like the entire world is against me. I know I didn't speak to many of the people on here (I heavily apologize) but still, thank you.

Thank you to all of the cool artist I got to meet and talk to. I probably didn't show much but I got extremely hyped every time another artist would try and associate with me. You all are very wonderful people with a beautiful talent, if I never come back please continue to use it for the better.

Thank you to the wonderful Gamejolt mods. I didn't meet a lot of those but I'd love to especially thank Manu for helping me get this far in my art career. If it wasn't for her and many others, I wouldn't have ever reached 400 followers. (Which was pretty exciting)!!!

Being on this platform was probs the best thing ever. I know I'm just repeating myself and I wish I knew how to use my words better but all I can really say is thank you! Thank you! Thank youuu!!! I love you all so much. I truly mean it. I wish I said these things more often but I was never good at it...

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When I was a little girl, I've always wanted to share my art with the world. I wanted to share my creativity with the rest of the art community. I know it's all just cartoon furries with anime features but getting this far, to me, it carries so much more meaning. It always has. I got to do exactly what I've always wanted to do, the thing everyone called "stupid" , "silly" and "pointless"....It was stupid and silly but it wasn't pointless, even if it was just one person. I just wanted one person to look at my work. A small audience. That's exactly what I got with a ton of hard work and a lot of support I've made it this far!!

It was a small dream. I'm sad I can't exactly live it without fearing Stalker-San but at least I was able to make myself feel seen...even if it was short...

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Why I'm Going Away:

For those who haven't known me long enough, I'm currently in an unhealthy situationship with an individual who I started to recently mention as "Stalker-San". Stalker-San and I have known each other for 9 years. (I often get math wrong).

Stalker-San and I don't get along due to Stalker-San's desire to hurt me as much as she mentally / physically can. This all started back 9 years ago when she randomly called me over and spewed an entire bloodline of insults at me for about an hour. Stalker-San said she was having a "bad day" but the harmful words and actions grew even worse over the years. Even going as far as sharing sensitive things, telling me to off myself and bringing in (strangers) to make me cry.

Even after getting banned off the platform she has been actively making brand new alt accounts just to harass me and has also been stalking my live streams with alt accounts as well. Everything I do, I can't do it without knowing she's there watching me. It's scary...

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Just to clarify....

Though I know people on the Internet can be a nuisance, this isn't a simple block and ignore type situationship because she's been stalking my account even after getting banned off Gamejolt.

**she had attempted to get the Gamejolt community to shame me because I was 🍇'd in a forced inc*st situationship at a young age and received a ton of backlash for it**

I physically cannot enjoy myself or even make "friends" without the fear of her coming at me or trying to connect with my mutuals. (One of the reasons why I isolate too).

How I Often Feel: (most of the stress)

It feels like I'm dying but I'm not dying. My body tenses up to the point where it hurts and I violently shake and stutter. I feel cold and I get painful knots in my stomach / chest. Thinking straight is impossible and my breathing becomes labored. My heartbeat feels weird as well.

At night, I often have nightmares about Stalker-San finding me and bringing bad people from my past with her to haunt me. (Such as the past faces who SA'd me).

If I do leave... Maybe it is goodbye but only for now, the world is a strange place~!! My disappearance won't be a huge impact but I hope that I'll be able to find inner peace and happiness and I hope that you too could do the same.

As much as I'd love to continue as Artfulist, I can't. Maybe I could but I'd have to endure more unnecessary pain from Stalker-San...I wouldn't be able to tell you my new account for the sake of keeping away from Stalker-San...

If I don't leave... That's even better and I'll try to ignore it all (somehow) and continue to reach from the top with all of you by my side!!

Don't forget, this isn't an official goodbye but no matter what happens...please continue to stay strong always and forever...okay? Much (platonic) love, many hugs and many blessings to you and the rest of the Gamejolt community. Never forget that you are loved for. Look after each other please~!! 🫂 ❤️

- Love, Artfulist (12/6/25)