I want to talk about something about the future.

I think that time has passed for the past months and I feel very unsure of what to expect for my future here. It is one thing to just wake up, open the computer, and do the same fun things. I still love to do fun things around but that doesn't necessarily mean I sometimes get to wake up or get home from school. which is already exhausting or overwhelming and I was trying to think, what do I draw or work on or play? So every day, I just have to get home and tell my friends that I don't have the energy to draw or do things and sometimes I just have the energy and do drawing or work on a game and then have to think about what's next for the next day. I have to worry, which is, of course, my problem, is that I don't know what to expect for my future and my journey here because...

I don't have any goals.

I still like to be here because this is the page and @Dis_Pop that made me what I am today. I love to be part of this community, do fun things, and make games, of course, but the problem is that my family has been strict since before I became a young adult. I don't want to miss out on my games or friends and family and barely active here on the internet. I still want to be here and be here for all of you. I still have a thing in my school and that is school drama production, which is one thing that I always do go to school for every day and those are the only two things in my life until one thing when I graduate next year.

I still wish to have a real girlfriend who understands, is nice, and will always love me because I have been suffering with a lot of previous relationships, especially the last one being horrific and worse; most of the things were my fault, and most of the things were also 'her' or 'his' fault. (i'm bi)

So that's why I just barely post with my drawing or talk about anything. I still have nothing to do for now other than play games and chat with friends; it is kind of why things have been very weird in space, along with a lack of ideas for drawing, except for one of my games still being in work. I still don't get perfection, but I'm still trying to figure it out through

anyway, I just want to talk about what will happen for my future and like I said again, I still want to be here, still part of the community and be here for you because you guys were amazing people (...expect some). If you have any questions, you can post in the comments, and I will try my best to answer them.

off-related, but I want to shout out to @Manuelaa for being an amazing person and supporting me a lot. she is the kind of people I really wish to see many times, just caring for each other and that really matters so please follow her if you'd like to!