7 days ago

- My experience with Stuffed -

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As at this point many knew, especially how after a emotional breakdown I had (Who the most apathetic people will call as a mere "Crash-out"), I think I gotta finally put my POV in regard of what's my relationship with Stuffed, to finally take out a weight, and move with some little satisfaction, especially as of now that I'm cooled down and more focused on the Italian Version of the TftGG - Prologue graphic novel:

Stuffed wasn't the first thing I've been working on at the time, It came out as I was writing the Drafts of Alfredo's novel series (One of the many bases for TftGG), and it was just something done for the lulz, maybe at the time, since I was a teenager, the attention got on my head, and as I had put aside Alfredo and the others series I was working on, I went full focus on Stuffed, over the time I realized that the direction I was taking only made me want to go back to my other drafts, hence why, after my first collaborator quitted. All the Episodes of Stuffed 2 were cancelled, as well as the 3rd one he was planning to do. I was trying to incorporate Stuffed into one of my other three different drafts (as R.o.M. 0, which had even a full novel draft written). Still, since my 3 series went through mass rewriting and eventually merged to form TftGG, Stuffed eventually lost its place... It became one of many failures I was facing at the time, if not, the biggest one, as I couldn't keep up to what others expected me to do with it, or worse, I couldn't keep up to my desires for it.

Then Chronicles came, an attempt to put my newly developed writing skills (Despite I was calibrated more on Italian than English), and tried to rewrite the whole story from the beginning to make it more of a Fan/Spin-Off connected to FNAF, but also transitioning to the at the time Merged universe of my drafts... Was so overwhelmed by school (Since I was heading for the Diploma in Graphic Design) and by my Perfectionism and Self-Doubt in making something decent, that It eventually got dropped... didn't helped that at the time I made very questionable designs that no longer fit my tastes (Or at least not at THAT extreme) which helped making me HATE the chronicles' Era, and everytime someone recovers those renders It makes me want to rip my hairs off, because it's like they keep haunting me to this day, and it almost make it like no matter what, my past mistakes will always haunt me and remind me the failure I am.

Then I was contacted for Refilled, I was kinda interested in helping, I spent hours after work to write dozens of drafts for Mechanics, Lore, Story, Minigames, Etc. for others to review and approve or ask changes, which barely happend, in fact, one of the reasons of a fight within that group outside the poor direction of it, was that nobody ever took a look, and simply took any of my drafts as Bad cause of my past writing... That was another thing that started to make me resent Stuffed, the fact that no matter how much I would have improved, nobody was ever going to give me a chance in either models or writing for what I did in the past... didn't help that my job made me hate 3D modeling due to taking too much advantage of that. That not only led me to abandon the Refilled project (That anyway it Imploded by itself), but to just give up on the series altogether, especially for the further regret it brought to me, considering that one of the members turned out a PDFile, whilethe other guy, which I had a silly argument regarding the fact that Fedetronic should have been renamed Frederick after the Wolf to act as a Spiritual Humanized successor, and as always would shot down any idea I'd bring as "Dumb" without listening, had the brilliant idea to start a rumor with his friends about ME having an "Illegal Girlfriend" in response of me making ONE post about TRTF Creator, and more about the double standard in criticizing Me for anything done with the series when that guy had a pass making Robot Strippers due to a break up, like, me taking a stand for once for something I was working hard to keep a piece of love for, led me to almost got a very serious and damaging slander, and kinda reminded me how this community just takes things like that so lightly with no regards of others, making me even more losing hope and trust in the community as well.

The more stressfull things this Series kept bringing to me, the more it made me hate it so much, especially after a video documentary of it came out, and while I had a pleasant talk with the creator of it, and I openly took some of the roasts with a laugh, because in the end, I do hate myself a lot, but along with respectful critics and respectulf observatory comments, there were many vile ones, many which even added contextes that weren't true, adding motives that weren't true, or simply that were hurtful simply because I wanted to go for a Sci-Fi than Paranormal and make it distinct from FNAF and more like Desolate Hope... And I don't want to talk about the comments of people simply shutting me down because I was "The guy who made a series somehow about space lesbians" (Which is TOTALLY a wrong misinterpretation of a badly cobbled up series of cancelled different lores)... So... I wanted to at least salvage some elements of it into TftGG as there are characters that were shared in it, and the potential of some to have a place in it, but I admit I was probably having the heart to keep up Stuffed page and all that it represented because there were people that I was very friend with who cared for that, but once I was hurt and betrayed by their action, not even the bridge being burned, but the way it was done, I just... got to my breaking point, I couldn't stand Stuffed anymore, and it's not something petty as "Oh so you stopped being friends with someone and you just deleted it", but it's the complex of it, of how it only brought me suffering, regret, cringe, stress and bad in general for almost a decade, that I just wanted it gone, especially now that it was connected to bonds that now became more of a trauma for me to bear, that were the only last thing I could say "Were the only good thing that came out of that mess", and so I decided to "Lend the trash to its rightful landfills", even tho, being the original creator, I made it clear I would keep the character that were in TFTGG and planned to appear in TFTGG, because I came to love the way they become their own thing there, rather than a bootleg of something... Besides... maybe at this point, the only true good things that came from that Series.

And this is the end of the story, I dunno what others are adding to take advantage/a shot at me or whatever, I want to finally move on from Stuffed, and even if it did end up seeing people hating me making Stuffed almost lost media, openly claiming such and even "Challenging me" about taking off the Archive, I just don't care... I got a better call to fulfill now, a Story to finally shape first as Italian Novel and then probably as a Crappy RPG Maker game, don't care the result, but over the years at this point I learned that I should just go and do what I like without being harsh on myself, hence why I managed to release the Prologue Comic now, I don't care if it will sell or not, if people will like it or not, my soul and life was put in shaping that world and characters, and I should be glad its out... I got great IRL friends who, knowing me fully, stood by my sides for almost a decade, one even for 2 Decades, and their support, love and care, and my own Pet Project, are the one thing that keeps me living and aspiring to release a better story than the old shame that has been haunting me for ages... I truly hope those who openly hate me or like taking shots at me will realize there's no petty reason behind my choice, because they simply didn't see it from my POV, I'm just a flawed, defective Human being that constantly lives with extreme emotions, not a monster...

That is all, folks!



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